Recital

It's been over a month and I just now took the time to sit down and upload the video from our recital back in December.

Daria and I began taking piano lessons together two or two and half years ago (not counting the summertime as we don't take lessons then). I wish I had this much dedication and motivation as a young girl. I think we've both really enjoyed taking lessons, although I could really do without the whole recital requirement.


Daria and I are required to play two pieces each, but I chose my favorites to post. Amazingly enough I'm posting one of mine, which I've never done before. Why you ask? For the main reason that recitals and I do not mix well and quite frankly seem to put me into some state of pre traumatic stress. One would think being an adult I would be past all those "what if I make a mistake fears." So instead of looking like a blubbering fool on the world wide web I opted not to publish my previous recitals. I can still hear my friend's husband say "I thought you told me she could play?" he was somewhat joking but to be honest I thought the same thing about myself in that moment since I had played both pieces perfectly before I left the house, right before I entered the twilight zone that is. When I sat down I seriously forgot the piece and it seemed as though I had never seen nor played it before in my life. Horrifying I know. I almost quit piano because I was so horrified at how scared I get to perform. But I finally determined that I wanted to continue taking lessons and beat my fear or not, but not to let it stop me. This time Janalen had me go first and she didn't require me to memorize my pieces. This seemed to do the trick and amazingly I was able to push through both pieces! A personal victory. Although I must say it still makes me literally sick to my stomach to think of playing in front of anyone.